I have a lot of secrets; I wasn't sexually abused or anything, but I simply have a lot of secrets that I wouldn't be comfortable sharing with anyone I know.
- I have major depression. I'm a freshman in high school — by my best estimation, it started when I was in 3rd grade. At the very least, I was definitely depressed by 5th grade.
- Going on the vein of the last secret, I've contemplated — seriously contemplated — suicide more than once. I actually started a suicide note.
- I read fan fiction. I've read it since 4th grade. I also have read original gay fiction on Wattpad since 6th grade.
- I have been sex scenes since I was 11.
- I've almost self-harmed many times.
- I'm incredibly insecure. People tell me I'm pretty, but I think I'm fat and ugly.
- In some of my less lucid moments, I have wanted to slice the fat on my thighs straight off.
- My father has called me a bitch before ("Stop being such a little bitch!") because I forgot to keep the door open for him. He also has referred to me as a bully several times before.
- My family has all at one point told me I'm selfish. That is contradictory to what everyone else tells me — I'm too nice.
- I hate my body.
- I don't really cry. Ever.
There we go. There's a lot more I could list, but I'm sure that I will end up adding more as time goes by.
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