I was on my own by age 18 disowned and kicked out because my father cannot handle the fact that my daughter is multi-racial he is a white supremacist. And in the NEW ORDER I would be executed for being a race and gender (lesbian) traitor. When I was out on the street I was taken in by a monster who seduced me she made me dance (strip) and prostituted me out. One day she was gone I never found out why. I was with her for six months or so and she just disappeared one day. I assumed she was dead but someone later told me she was in Vancouver. I don’t know and I don’t really care. She did a number on my head by using a combination of seduction (I was starved for love) threats and violence and also convincing me that she was “protecting” me from worst monsters. When she was gone I realized I had the skills to make my own money. I left the club we were working at and eventually moved up to a better one. My daughter had some medical issues…and I used the money dancing and part time “escort work” to pay those bills but I spent money as fast as I made it. Also my first priority was having a good time and living it up. I never really got into drugs and alcohol my thing was sex and travelling. I think the sex part was more about feeling lonely and unloved. I felt a responsibility to my daughter but no real desire to spend much time with her so I paid well for good nanny care and went off on trips to places like Disney and I loved New Orleans. I had an older woman who took care of me sometimes…she was in her 50s and she would take me places like that….and we’d have a real good time. She was generous and I was open minded it really worked except she was also married. When I was about 23 my life started to seem empty and pointless. I had been raped a couple of times and sodomized brutally by johns. I got stabbed after leaving the club one night and I almost bled out. It was peaceful and I pretty much welcomed death but when I was almost out I remembered my daughter and so I called out one more time for help. After that after I recovered the woman I mentioned who took care of me pointed out what I was missing in my life with neglecting my daughter. She paid me to read to her. Every day. I just did it for the money at first but then it became a highlight of my day. Didn’t matter if I went into work at 4:00 PM I read to her before I went to work. I got a chance for a decent job with benefits on a ranch giving riding lessons and tours of the ranch and also ranch work. It was hard but I grew to love it and cried bitterly when the family sold the ranch. By then I had become a person who helped her daughter with homework and read to her daily. I got up at sunrise and worked hard but I had good friends and people who respected me. I even got my GED and took a few college classes. It’s been hard since I lost the people I considered an extended family on the ranch. I had to make compromises but I’m working two part time jobs now and trying to find something better.
Read other answers by Darla Benz on Quora:
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